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It doesn't exist, but what is really occurring is that one's personal demon/demons are altering reality just for the sake of tormenting you into thinking up a rational explanation like false/poor memory or even universes colliding as if they were galaxies. Once you experience more reality-altering events you begin to question if you are going mad. I am starting to feel as if the demons are fucking with me and have been now that I started transitioning. Like they want me to something. Sometimes I get the feeling as if I am supposed to have a demonic baby and give way to the anti-Christ. What the fuck is happening to me?!
My dreams tend to be the weirdest, most philosophical, and sometimes even terrifying ones and never any pleasant or peaceful ones. When I awake I see shapes form in things that wouldn't normally fit the shape. These things disappear after a minute or so, but then when I noticed something that I didn't before and how it didn't fade I get terrified. This just happened to me a few minutes ago with a Halloween decoration hanging up next to a Christmas stocking I never taken down from my closet door. I thought it was the Christmas stocking itself.
I feel like I need a protector and yet nobody can protect me. I try to imagine that a few people were in the room with me. From Jesus, to The Doctor, to Brie, to even my old boyfriend tupla which I didn't realize was a tupla upon first imagining him. None of them seem to stay for long and these visions that are planted in my brain still remain and come back.
If you want a god who has crossdressed, there's Thor. And one who switched to female and gave birth, there's Loki.
You should read The Old Testament. Yahweh is a war god, not a loving god. Pretty much the entire Old Testament.
Beyond genociding the entire world in a flood, there's hating King Saul for not genociding all the people and animals of a tribe he invaded. Then Yahweh tortured Saul with an evil spirit. Oh and the Pharaoh of Egypt, the text says Yahweh "hardened his heart" over and over so he mind-controlled The Pharaoh to show off his powers by torturing and killing the Egyptians when The Pharaoh would rather let the jews go.
Even with Zoroastrian influence in the New Testament, Yahweh tortures people eternally who do not worship him after death. Jesus cursed a fig tree for not bearing fruit when it was out of season. There's a quote where Jesus says he's not here to bring peace but the sword.
·Catherine !TGirlYJKXM (OP) — 3 months ago, 12 hours later, 1 day after the original post[^][v]#172,976
That doesn't really answer the question as to whether or not God is all loving. Please do not change the subject from what is being asked of you. The God of the Old Testament is clearly a demiurge.